Lemme taka you back to 4.5hours before the title mentioned take place..

Left office at 6ish and headed to the night market in Chinatown with the colleagues prior to dinner with the mates. The pictures will show you bits and pieces of the market.







Went to Sancheng Hotpot King for dinner. The queue was crazy & thank goodness we made a book. They refurbished the restaurant! It used to be very run down and disgusting. And to our surprise, they handed us an Ipad when we asked for the menu. So 'In' right now seriously. Haven't been to a hotpot restaurant that uses Ipad to order food.





After dinner, we proceeded to Albion Hotel for drinks. I tried asking bartender whether they can make Zombie Brain shot after reading @Alcoholiq post a few days ago. Sadly, they couldn't make the shot since they didn't have peach schnapps.

Played pokies with the boys for a bit before getting more drinks. I introduced the shot to the boys - 'Quick Fuck'. Try it out, get the boys to do the ordering because it's funny to see them order from the bartender whether the bartender is a he or she.

The bar wasn't that busy. Talked to the bartender for a bit and asked for some new shots recommendation. She recommended Aqua Bomb. I remember seeing the uni kids' facebook photos with this drink. But never had a chance to try it. Ordered 2 and made the bestie do the challenge with me.


I made her down the whole thing at one breath. It wasn't as easy because it was very gassy. Until now i still dunno what's in that drink and not interested to know. It was awesome to try it once but definitely won't do it again.


I think the nicotine was playing with my brain after the fag. Bought everyone one round of 'Quick Fuck'. Hence the title for this post. 9 shots. The bartender and other people by the bar were looking at me with this look --> .. Dude, it's Friday, if you decide to drink your liver out, do it. Or else, just go home and sleep.


More tequilas and beers later, some decided to call it a night. The remaining headed to Meet Fresh for dessert at 11.30pm. By the time, i was very sober even though i was highly intoxicated. The taro balls never tasted soooo good.


Whenever me and my best friend are out, we go bonkers. We dare to try a lot of stuff which many don't do. The boys don't even see us as girls' girl. We smoke, we drink, we talk so much rubbish. You know how the night ended? We went to the adult store and checked out the dvds and toys. Yea, we were idiotic like that. Drinking brings everyone together regardless of where you are from.

If the mr. & mrs. find out what i do, i'll get a ticket instantly to go home for good. ah.....

Tonight is the night we've been looking forward to for months. Dear weather, please warm up! I can't wear that dress if it's this windy!

I just finished level 1 of the 30 days shred. Dammit. It was harder than i expected. My arms are still shaking as i'm typing now.

Dear women, what is the REAL reason for you wanting to lose weight?

• Be healthier
• Be more active
• Fit into smaller size clothes 
• Get out of the overweight/obese zone

ya ya ya.. we all know that. But, BULLSHIT. What really pushed you into doing it? Those listed above, come on, seriously everyone says that. And that is not the real reason why it finally made you wanting to lose weight.

The reason why i started losing weight in January was (1) because of the following photo:

 

(2) i received an invitation from my college mate @jenny_pang for her April's wedding registration. I wanted to wear my favourite dress to the event. To do so, i needed to fit into it.

 

Actually those really were the 2 reasons why i started to lose weight.

As most of you know, i started off the weight loss doing liquid diet. The longest i've done few years back was 6 weeks straight without eating. This time around, i did 9 weeks. I have never revealed to anyone the real reasons why i managed not to eat for so long. Halfway through, i did want to give up. I had these bottles of nuts sitting under my coffee table and i almost ALMOST eat it. But i didn't.

At the back of my brain, these thoughts/reasons pushed me till the end (besides the 2 mentioned):

"bitch you're fucking fat"

1. I was wearing the same clothes almost everyday because i was being cheap not wanting to buy new clothes and i couldn't fit into most of my clothes. The biggest size i've been was a Australian size 14. Never in my entire life.  
2. I was the biggest among my girl friends and i weighed heavier than some of my guy friends?
   
3. I was at clubs wearing clothes that i thought i look sexy in. WRONG. Having a pair of DD boobs helped to a certain extent. But it can't compare to being a smaller size human being.
4. I've received comments like 'oh, so tall, big and very healthy ah'. You knows usually aunties say it. At the back of their brain, it actually means something like 'This girl has no self-love. Doesn't she know she is fat?'. That's what my ma told me.
5. Confidence level hit all time low. I didn't get treated nicely when i was fat. Some words in the Canto language really are the rudest and meanest words ever. When you're around people that speak Cantonese, people give comments like 'fei po' (fat girl), 'zhu pa' (porkchop), those really mean stuff. Those hurt. 
6. Attention from men? ehehee.. almost 0.
   
7. I was very self conscious in bed. = libido just wasn't there
   
8. I NEED MY SOCIAL LIFE BACK!!!
   

Those applied only to me. Some reasons overlapped and it might make no sense to you. I'm just being honest to myself and constantly reminding what i've been through and i don't wanna go back. I was shopping at Costco that day and looking at the people buying big bag of chips, i really cannot go back to where i was. no no no nono no ono o no o no no no no...

I'm still trying to lose the remaining weight. But those 10 reasons up there? All gone. Done and dusted. There goes the DD and i didn't end up wearing that dress to my friend's ROM. Now i have reached another level of shallow-ness in my weight loss reasons. I'll disclose a few.

1. Getting ready for the remaining 6 crazy months of 2012. [all the social events are during that time] And i need to look my best.
   
2. Getting a tattoo. It might not happen but we'll see.
   
3. Have more fun with the IBs. [yes, investment bankers and traders are always my favourite. Alpha males ftw]
4. To fit into this corset that my friend got me years ago. I'm gonna wear it to Ivy. One day.
   

 

and the list goes on... 'Mich, you're such a bitch'. i know that. snake, JC, i'm curious what u 2 are gonna tell me in gchat after reading this. 

If you can't commit to losing weight, think harder why do you even have the slight thought of wanting to lose it. It is harsh but it helps. You have to be honest to yourself. If you don't push yourself at all, you're destined to be a failure. No one else is going to help you but yourself.

Don't ever give up on what you've started. Definitely not an easy journey. Even though you fall off the wagon, just get back on track and continue. The payoff is awesome and it is worth it

~~~~ I've been very happy lately. Until the point where everyone is annoyed. No anger, no sadness, no frustration. Just full on smilling everyday.

It's good to be happy naturally. You don't wanna get to the other side of me. If you do, you'll get burnt, really bad.

2nd half of 2012 is coming, meaning there will be more social events and birthdays. From now till end of June, i'm gonna give up my usual life and get myself ready for the rest of 2012.


The only thing i need badly is sleep. Passing out on the couch during dinner and waking up at 12am and falling back to sleep at 2/3am is absolutely not cool.

With this cold weather, coffee + cigarettes really compliment each other really damn fucking well.

Have to focus, please focus, SERIOUSLY JUST FOCUS ALREADY: weight, $$$ & being happy.